I have a hard time with change. I have a really really hard time with change. On my mission I didn't have a problem with it, probably cause I knew that it was coming. With that being said when change takes place and you aren't expecting it to, it sucks like a vacuum. Either its really good or it well just sucks.
This past year has been filled with example of good change and change that I could've done without. 1)I got a promotion at work=good.
2) Favorite patient passing away=bad
3)having 3 patients die in one week=bad
4)getting new assignment at the temple=good
5)Helping people in a manner I didn't know=good
The change that I'm talking about I can't really talk about quite yet. Lets just say it was a curve ball that I wasn't expecting. My initial reaction was being hurt. I cried. I cried hard and long. Then after the hurt I was mad. I couldn't believe that this was getting taken away from me. My favorite thing ever was being snatched from underneath me. And then I sat back and thought. I turned off all my music all the outside things, and read an article on my phone (I know that sounds
As much as I don't want to admit this, I need to have this change. It just makes sense. Especially with what I'm trying to achieve in the future. I'm not mad anymore. I am actually really happy that this is happening... well I will be come a couple months from now. Here is why:
With starting school back up in the spring I am going to need more time during the week and on weekends to be able to focus and do good in school. I think on my mission, more so than before my mission, I learned to gain an appreciation of education. I think I was trying too hard before my mission to just go to school cause it was expected of me. I didn't know what I was wanting to do. I thought I did but in reality I wanted to do a little of everything. I knew that work would be my guide in letting me know what to do with my life. So when I worked at the different jobs while I was going through school I think it more or less just confused me and what I wanted to do.
Now that I'm home, have been, and I've been working at a good job the last year I have finally seen what I want to do. I am hoping for good things to come in the next little while this change that is going to be starting in the spring. I am hoping to better myself and help better others with the charge that I've been given.
So here's to change. Late nights with reading/studying/stressing/lack of sleep. But it will be all worth it. Because the Man upstairs knows what he is doing. And getting mad wastes too much energy that can be used seeing the good.
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